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私HYPERSTRESS  . Schools exams keep coming 。

たけてえええええええええええ。。。。。！！！！

So Todays Report  :-

I learn about Lucid Dream . There's a humor said it's dangerous <- Lucid Dream can be dangerous .

知らない ～

I've been doing my Lucid Dream for almost 2 year and controlling myself on my dream . It feels like a game though . Sometimes its Bad Nightmare and i woke myself up .

And Sleep Paralysis too . It's been more than 5 times <- bad habit  

最近は私考える、i wonder what i did and what should i do . I'm never enjoying 

schools even a bit . I'm lying though . But there's a bit or maybe a lil things that could make me 

remembered past and make me happy <- EVEN A BIT it's PRECIOUS .

And well,i'm not really good with friends.So sometimes i keep saying hello to people i don't even  know . 

My mom always said this to me , " Friends are important , so make many friends as you can "

So,i tried making friends as much as i can . i memorized all people's name in my school . But there's some i forget though . And once i meet them,i said ,"Hello,***". OMIGOD that was what you call SUSPICIOUS .

But,IT WORKS ! They reply back with smile . That was my first impression . Up until now,i'm still doing it . 

Baka mitai na ~ 

And,of course i'm thinking about people's mind . I know my friends talking me behind my back . Well,they 

pretend but there's 1 people told me . W/out  someone told me i know it though . I think this is my negative 

thingking . But i feel like don't wanna open my eyes to reality again . I'm shutting my life to my fantasy and 

keep daydreaming. And this is the reason i become OTAKU . I keep watching 

anime.One,Ten,Hundreds,Thousands,Millions,Billions i'm still and i will keep myself in this world .

ANIME . i almost watch all genre . and sometimes i've become Fuujoshi . i like Yaoi things . My friends at 

school know it . It's only 5 friends know it though . and 1 else didn't believe it . so it makes 6 of em .

One of em feel grossed but they still treat me as usual . And 2 of em,They laughs at me . But still this 2 

people spoiled me . Well,i couldn't say i'm not happy nor sad . 

I think maybe shutting myself into Fantasy is bad things , or maybe it's no good at all .But,Since i'm an idiot its ALRIGHT ! 

RIGHT NOW I AM AN IDIOT . LAST YEAR I AM AN IDIOT TOO . NEXT YEAR I WILL STILL BECOME AN IDIOT TOO . AND THE YEAR NEXT YEAR TOO . AND THE YEAR NEXT YEAR AND NEXT NEXT YEAR TOO . I WILL STILL BECOME AN IDIOT . WUAAHAHAHAHAHHA .

-______- wtf am i doing ?