more than 1 year is it ...
Since I've got notification on my phone someone I know followed me...
I reluctantly open this...and.... I kinda read all this blog's posts all over again
I'm...dissapointed in myself...seriously dissapointed ...
But..oh well let them past since I've got no control over my old mind
It's been long long past Anicult 2015 and ..
way too late is it..?
Finally got sensei autograph
I could sleep peacefully now DX
AFAID also ruined me . I finally met Yami in AFAID DX
What a bliss ~
The only provocative poster that I wouldn't and couldn't stick it on my wall
This provocative poster , 2 posters below, 2 keychains , and uchiwa are from 1 package bought in front of the events which cost.... i dunno around IDR 200-300 may...be...忘れたんだ
Fun for me and no to my wallet
Lately I've been into Kdrama Descendant of the sun , Bring it on Ghost , Doctors , Love in the moonlight , W , and well others
And the one which make so much impact on me ... Scarlet Heart
It was just frustrating much the last episode aka the ending...
just...WHY
IU really pretty here so i took screenshots
I'm also already on my 3rd Semester . And recently I just broke up . After 1 year relationship seems like it won't do . Well... I'm the one at fault afterall . There's just things that couldn't be said honestly .
プライドが高すぎとか、エゴとか、自己満足とか you named it . my relationship was like I'm the one in charge . Like I'm the one who are in fully control that was what I thought and I dunno what's his thought maybe and ofc different from what I thought . At first , hmm how do I say ... Our relationship is like on the thin line . And I made the last straw . This semester somehow doing a really good job making me pissed and rage on all day along even until now . Coincidentally and unfortunately , I'm raging my anger on him . Thus BOOM , the end of us . To sum it up , we broke up by not a nice way and making it awkward if someday we do meet each other .
It's kind of.. i dunno i don't feel anything . But even if I want to make it up to him its already too late .
Too late to regret , too late to feel sad , too late to cry , too late to think , FOR ME .
I remember I bought him a present months ago and up till now still in my closet .
After this break up , this present and the letter which remained unsent feels like a waste .
Before the break up though , I told my friends how our relationship going . Tbh , i didn't tell my friend 100% the truth since we can't just trust someone as our ally just because we do share a couple years together no ? I told them my stories mixed with the manga i recently read to make it look like I'm the bad one . hurrr~ I'm the fvkn bad and a biatch one . And KABOOM they do believed *sigh*
Rumors do spread fast like a fire .
Well ~ Heartbreak is such a waste . A waste of .. well you named it . Waste of time ? waste of emotion ? waste of energy ? waste of feelings ? it's kind of ironic . What already happened then let it be huh ~ And here I am rambling afterall I said . まぁぁ～しょうがないなぁ～
Then , This year , my dose of anime kind of decreasing . Yuri on Ice make me think like ..... is this anime yaoi or not because Victor keep hinting it and I just couldn't pinpoint it out . Yet on Ep 7 they do Chuu ~ so I was like ohhh okay now I got it they do .
All this blog's post will become reminder of what adolescent me wrote .
